Tuesday, June 27, 2006

I wish i was a punk rocker

Where am i ?

In the middle of the lesson am suppose to be teaching.

Nm is whinging that I am not providing her with entertainment. I apologise but at this moment in time I am marking. Its brain draining truly it is because you have to attempt to decipher what the kids have written not only is their hand writing really bad but a lot of them can even structure their sentences.

All I have had time for is, sneaking in reads of my book.

Why is it when I have marking all I want to do put it off until have finished my book?

I was on a roll seriously people, I got organised and I was meeting my personal quota then I get the bad news I am marking to harshly and I have to stop until I get my sample back. Which also meant I had to remark the 75 (I counted exactly) papers. I was so not amused.

So now I have to get may self back into the swing of things which is quite hard.

But I also have to organise my Egypt trip am going nearly 2 half weeks time . I finally sent of for my visa Yeah yeah. I am going

Dear God I am going.

I just felt the nerves of anxiety go through me. IA I will be fine.

Okay breathe lets think about other things
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghh I can’t
I can only think of things that I need to do before I go.
Seriously feeling the anxiety

Okay lets try breathing again.

Marriage front- I am just tired of rejections and of been jealous of people who are already there and happy.
But am also terrified of the whole thing. I mean whose to say we know that the person or if I thought he was the person and he’s not. What if he changes into a person I can’t even understand never mind thought I loved and trusted with my whole soul and body.

I know there people I know who have beautiful marriages and other are having a hard time of it.
But I can’t help the pessimistic side of me which appears when marriages and their problems come up. I don’t have a solid background of happy marriage and I have serious trust issue with the opposite gender.

So is the grass green on the other side not really I mean I would get some benefits but I don’t think they would outweigh the perks of been single.

But life goes on, you worry for people, ask Allah to guide them and ease their suffering and leave it there.

I forgotten how easy it is to write and see things on paper.

Right that should do for now I am going to go back to teaching.

TKC my people

Love and salaam (Peace)

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Latest News


One I passed my driving test finally Shukr Allah.


Lady from the shire got married

Dizzy was in a car accident (not her fault)- has whiplash poor thing.



NM got mugged (idiot fought with the mugger)

I had a week off from work where I tried not to go on the computer if I could help it.

Had a meeting with NM research project and just like to mention her boss is still the, sheep biting, bucket head, gape seed stupid.

My mum is pleased with my work of art (shoe rack) which I varnished over three days.

Am suppose to be creating next years As rescource notes. Not going to well. My head feels like its in cotton wool. Great a bit of sun and I get hayfever.

So that’s it for this installment.