In the middle of the lesson am suppose to be teaching.
Nm is whinging that I am not providing her with entertainment. I apologise but at this moment in time I am marking. Its brain draining truly it is because you have to attempt to
decipher what the kids have written not only is their hand writing really bad but a lot of them can even structure their sentences. All I have had time for is, sneaking in reads of my book.
Why is it when I have marking all I want to do put it off until have finished my book?
I was on a roll seriously people, I got organised and I was meeting my personal quota then I get the bad news I am marking to harshly and I have to stop until I get my sample back. Which also meant I had to remark the 75 (I counted exactly) papers. I was so not amused.
So now I have to get may self back into the swing of things which is quite hard.
But I also have to organise my Egypt trip am going nearly 2 half weeks time . I finally sent of for my visa Yeah yeah. I am going
Dear God I am going.
I just felt the nerves of anxiety go through me. IA I will be fine.
Okay breathe lets think about other things
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghh I can’t
I can only think of things that I need to do before I go.
Seriously feeling the anxiety
Okay lets try breathing again.
Marriage front- I am just tired of rejections and of been jealous of people who are already there and happy.But am also terrified of the whole thing. I mean whose to say we know that the person or if I thought he was the person and he’s not. What if he changes into a person I can’t even understand never mind thought I loved and trusted with my whole soul and body.
I know there people I know who have beautiful marriages and other are having a hard time of it.
But I can’t help the pessimistic side of me which appears when marriages and their problems come up. I don’t have a solid background of happy marriage and I have serious trust issue with the opposite gender.
So is the grass green on the other side not really I mean I would get some benefits but I don’t think they would outweigh the perks of been single.
But life goes on, you worry for people, ask Allah to guide them and ease their suffering and leave it there.
I forgotten how easy it is to write and see things on paper.
Right that should do for now I am going to go back to teaching.
TKC my people
Love and salaam (Peace)
