Rant&Rave (actually its just random thoughts&whinging)

Salaam Peeps!!

Life for me has been so hectic recently and most of it my fault. But I am forever learning so inshaAllah I won’t be making the same mistake again.

I am sorry people for the rushed salaams here and there or the rushed telephone conversation or to the conversations where all I have done is talk about my work. But that is over for the next two weeks and there will be exam marking in the next three week after that.

So my dearest friends I ask for your forgiveness in my forgetfulness.

Dear God its nearly the end of the year and I have been teaching three full years and I am still not organized enough not to be doing all nighters.

Now on a completely random tangent of thought

There are people who annoy me but sometimes I wonder who I annoy and if they like me just don’t say to my face. The people who annoy me I am civil to but they are not incorporated in to my social life. But there has to be people who I annoy I wonder who?

What do other people think of me? Do they see the slightly below average height young person who tends to try and bossy people around?

Do they see the friend who is always and will always be there for them

Or sister who is there to whining on or pick on or giggle with until 12 at night even though we have work the next morning.

Ever thought what the world would look like through another persons eyes. I mean sometimes I get a shock looking in the mirror and I think is that really what I look like. So I wonder would I get a shock if I saw my behaviour my attitude and my mannerism through some else point of view.

Is there something even I don’t see that ticks people off about me and how do other people deal with it?

When my kids at work tick me off, boy oh boy do they know they have annoyed me. Not only do they about my annoyance but so do the kids on the table or in the class.

I mean I know when I have annoyed members of my family we are vocal enough that you could hear us down the street.

But I always get a sense of people have a home personality and outside personality. So which one is the truest portray of that person?

How can you really know someone?

People who know me know the a major issue in my life is which begins with the letter M.

I am in the process of meeting feasible potential but you meet someone of them and you know it’s a no straight away.

But there are those that you meet who tick the right boxes on paper BUT there is something funny about them and your family aren’t to keen on him what do you do then.

How do you know he is the person that you want to life the rest of your life with may it be a year or 50 years?

You asked the right questions and you’ve met him once twice and then the doubts hit you. You’ve prayed to Allah to guide and you get a unease feeling but maybeits just nerves or indigestion!

Because you have lowered your expectations right down to the bare minimum you feel “well am I settling” for not second best but maybe fifth best or seventh best.

Am a the fussy and picky little twit who should be grateful people are still interested in marrying you?

What about the one?

The one you have had a dream about but don’t know who he is and when he’s suppose to come into your life.

People the questions not hit you they smack you so hard that you can possible see the other side of the moon.

So ….


Where do I go from here I don’t know . This Blog thing is really therapeutic .
Heck ppl don’t feel obliged to read any more whinging

So am signing off
Peace
GYM