Salaam,
People I want all of you to stand up and be counted as British Muslims.
We are going to deal with crappiness of the hajj visa system. There is no way the Saudi government can get away with being an ostrich any more.
I want you people to join me in a petition and letter writing session to the embassy and the Saudi government to object to the corrupt system that they have in place which is causing so much torment to people.
I was soo depressed and upset yesterday about the news that I wasn’t going to hajj. However I went to my local Islamic circle and guess what I was hearing I was hearing that the reason me and so many people were not going to hajj was because the price of the hajj visa had risen to £700.
However
Did you know that the Hajj visa are FREE and what people are paying for through the nose is bribes.
And fair enough it may be not my destiny not to go however there is no way I am going to take this laying down.
For goodness sake people what are is happening here!!!
Its not enough that most people can’t go when they are healthy and fit cos they have to spend their youth saving up for them to go to hajj. But they then they have to deal with the corrupt system of the obtaining a visa.
I say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH
Its time to change
Its time to stop saying its because of the hajj period!
It’s not because of Hajj. It been Hajj period has nothing to do with the corrupt and nasty side of people that comes out during this period.
Its shameful that Muslims are so disorganised and that everyone accepts it.
Not any more people and NO WAY NO HOW
Come on people stand and be counted!!!!!
For the all the muslims who are going Pls pray for all of us and May Allah grant you peace and safety.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Thursday, November 16, 2006
A long time gone
Salaam, salaam,
Its been a while come this blog of mine. However its strange I don’t feel the compulsion to write about my days.
Mainly because its work then home and then work again.
I have had are really mad buying spree on Amazon. Its not funny, last time it did this I just realised I had disposable income and I could actually use it the way I wanted to so I slightly went nuts. So my action to overcome that was to allocate my self £20 each month and if I didn’t buy anything I didn’t buy any thing I didn’t get a rollover either.
And there have been some slip up but not as bad as the last couple of weeks.
I have such a strong compulsion to read that I truly think I am addicted or am I addicted to bargains or both. A quandary I am sure that I will solve if I really wanted to hurt my head about it.
Some people say that most readers become writers but I have truly never felt the need. Sometimes I have thought I could have written a better ending if the book started off well.
Also the amount t of reading I do doesn’t actually seem to help my spelling. When I read I don’t see the words I actually see the scene the characters and the action that’s happening.
An example of that was Vikram Seth a suitable boy. I read it and finished it but boy was that hard work.
However there are some books that describe every little thing which doesn’t actually seem to catch my interest I find them harder to read than books with minimum detail.
Right enough about reading
I have joined a dancing class which just illustrates how lacking I am in any sense of rhythm or coordination Arrggghh but its funny any way.
I am trying to walk more and I have been to the gym once a week but I am going to move that up to 3 times a week so I can get fit for Hajj.
I have been injected with the neccessary vaccines and all the stuff has been sent off to get my visa, Its four weeks people till we go. Yay yay yay. InshAllah.
Other than that my life has been blah blah.
Take care and Peace
Its been a while come this blog of mine. However its strange I don’t feel the compulsion to write about my days.
Mainly because its work then home and then work again.
I have had are really mad buying spree on Amazon. Its not funny, last time it did this I just realised I had disposable income and I could actually use it the way I wanted to so I slightly went nuts. So my action to overcome that was to allocate my self £20 each month and if I didn’t buy anything I didn’t buy any thing I didn’t get a rollover either.
And there have been some slip up but not as bad as the last couple of weeks.
I have such a strong compulsion to read that I truly think I am addicted or am I addicted to bargains or both. A quandary I am sure that I will solve if I really wanted to hurt my head about it.
Some people say that most readers become writers but I have truly never felt the need. Sometimes I have thought I could have written a better ending if the book started off well.
Also the amount t of reading I do doesn’t actually seem to help my spelling. When I read I don’t see the words I actually see the scene the characters and the action that’s happening.
An example of that was Vikram Seth a suitable boy. I read it and finished it but boy was that hard work.
However there are some books that describe every little thing which doesn’t actually seem to catch my interest I find them harder to read than books with minimum detail.
Right enough about reading
I have joined a dancing class which just illustrates how lacking I am in any sense of rhythm or coordination Arrggghh but its funny any way.
I am trying to walk more and I have been to the gym once a week but I am going to move that up to 3 times a week so I can get fit for Hajj.
I have been injected with the neccessary vaccines and all the stuff has been sent off to get my visa, Its four weeks people till we go. Yay yay yay. InshAllah.
Other than that my life has been blah blah.
Take care and Peace
Friday, October 13, 2006
The blue sky like blue bubble gum (who sung that)
Jeeez louise people am trying write in my blog but every time I sit down I have to go off and down something which I should have done ages ago.
News flash
Saniya has had a baby which has been renamed Sulyeman from Peanut.
Will post some pics up as soon as I get a chance to get down to see her and baby. IA.
That really about it.
Other than that its been work, trying to got to Arabic class and trying to find a house to invest in so I can start my two year plan.
My two year plan is something I am not ready to discuss yet because I need to iron a couple of things out but as I will be turning 26 at the end of the year I feel I need to become more proactive in my life and move it along otherwise I feel like I will have stagnated and just let things pass over me.
There have been times where I have wanted to sit down and write loads of stuff up that’s in my head but as I get busy I forget what they are and they float to the la la land where ideas go if they aren’t acted on.
However the other day I had some time and sat down and wrote things out that were just on my mind and it is therapeutic when you have a pen and paper in your hand and you write until your hand hurts.
Then I ripped it up and I felt better.
Words have the power to heal or hurt and the word I wrote down was every thing that was stuck in my head buzzing around and around.
Looking at the words on the paper I saw there were issues that I was worrying about but there was nothing for me to do about them.
So the challenge is now to overcome my neurotic tendencies and live with what I can and deal with the rest of the stuff as it happens rather than worrying about what maybe and what may not be.
Other News
Which may or may not be news is I planning to go to Hajj.
However there may be a change in plan as the timings aren’t as I want them to be.
The group is hoping that we leave on the 20th dec and come back on the 7th Jan but the issue is that I have to be back on the 8th . However pls can everyone do Dua and so that if I do go that I get the flight back on time and don’t have to get in trouble with work.
Thanks ppl.
Right am off to do my job.
News flash
Saniya has had a baby which has been renamed Sulyeman from Peanut.
Will post some pics up as soon as I get a chance to get down to see her and baby. IA.
That really about it.
Other than that its been work, trying to got to Arabic class and trying to find a house to invest in so I can start my two year plan.
My two year plan is something I am not ready to discuss yet because I need to iron a couple of things out but as I will be turning 26 at the end of the year I feel I need to become more proactive in my life and move it along otherwise I feel like I will have stagnated and just let things pass over me.
There have been times where I have wanted to sit down and write loads of stuff up that’s in my head but as I get busy I forget what they are and they float to the la la land where ideas go if they aren’t acted on.
However the other day I had some time and sat down and wrote things out that were just on my mind and it is therapeutic when you have a pen and paper in your hand and you write until your hand hurts.
Then I ripped it up and I felt better.
Words have the power to heal or hurt and the word I wrote down was every thing that was stuck in my head buzzing around and around.
Looking at the words on the paper I saw there were issues that I was worrying about but there was nothing for me to do about them.
So the challenge is now to overcome my neurotic tendencies and live with what I can and deal with the rest of the stuff as it happens rather than worrying about what maybe and what may not be.
Other News
Which may or may not be news is I planning to go to Hajj.
However there may be a change in plan as the timings aren’t as I want them to be.
The group is hoping that we leave on the 20th dec and come back on the 7th Jan but the issue is that I have to be back on the 8th . However pls can everyone do Dua and so that if I do go that I get the flight back on time and don’t have to get in trouble with work.
Thanks ppl.
Right am off to do my job.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Demo- where were you people!!!
On Saturday it was the Manchester demo it was fantastic.
My mum wentwith us, she was determined to go . She said as it was in Manchester she had a duty to attend. Mum can’t travel by coach or for a long time as she has a dodgy back so she missed other demos.
As I was walking along I was amazed at the array of different people that were there from young teenagers(which gave me faith in the younger generation) and old ladies who were so old that they had to stopped every few minutes but were determined to make it around the march.
Mr Extermely naughty person (formerly know as Mr Sunshine) was there but he was more interested in the sticks that held the banners so he could wave it around.
But I was a beautiful day and people where out support a cause it was great.
The only down side was there weren’t as many Muslims as I hoped there to be also when we went walking through market street to get to the MYF I saw just about the same amount of people just shopping not bothered that there was a demo on ,it right annoyed.
Look who I found on Yahoo News
http://it.news.yahoo.com/23092006/38/immagine/protesters-march-in-an-anti-war-protest-demo-in-manchester.html
Other Pics of the demo
My mum wentwith us, she was determined to go . She said as it was in Manchester she had a duty to attend. Mum can’t travel by coach or for a long time as she has a dodgy back so she missed other demos.
As I was walking along I was amazed at the array of different people that were there from young teenagers(which gave me faith in the younger generation) and old ladies who were so old that they had to stopped every few minutes but were determined to make it around the march.
Mr Extermely naughty person (formerly know as Mr Sunshine) was there but he was more interested in the sticks that held the banners so he could wave it around.
But I was a beautiful day and people where out support a cause it was great.
The only down side was there weren’t as many Muslims as I hoped there to be also when we went walking through market street to get to the MYF I saw just about the same amount of people just shopping not bothered that there was a demo on ,it right annoyed.
Look who I found on Yahoo News
http://it.news.yahoo.com/23092006/38/immagine/protesters-march-in-an-anti-war-protest-demo-in-manchester.html
Other Pics of the demo
Its here its here
Ramadan Mubarak every one
I wanted to put a image up but I saw quite a few that I likes so am putting all of them up.
Make the most of it people and pls keep me in your dua
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Have you written yet????
Salaam people
Right Blogging bloging people.
Any exciting parts of my life at this moment is really no existent. It’s a very mundane.
Very year I make the resolution I will stay on top my work and from the moment the phrase pass my mouth I fall behind. This year was due to complete jet lag.
As most my circle of friends were aware I landed on Monday and I started work on Tuesday.
So the first week was spent nodding off every time there was no one in the room with me.
Then comes Inspection time and Ucas references for students I taught last year for most of them I had to lie and say they were average behaved kids then they were the most rotten little gargoyles know to the education system,.
Other then that it really.
The kids are not to bad however I have only had then a couple of weeks. But there are some Toerags (which sounds good but doesn’t seem to have the same effect in writing huh!!) in my foundation group.
Marriage I am becoming (MD would I already was) a real cynic. There are issues that everyone faces but there seems to be more now than every before.
What else is happening in my life nothing really well and truly.
I had complaints that people haven’t seen my face for the last couple of weeks . I apologise but at this moment in time I am trying to stay on top of work so I have started to go into work for 8 am and finish by 5pm which means I am completely shattered as I have to get up at about 6.30. And yes other people do it normally put I haven’t had to.
So I making the effort to do most of my paperwork on time and not bring it home which isn’t really happening yet but it will IA.
And I would like that it has taken me three days to write this because every time I sit down to write it I have to go and do something else.
And its not my fault ppl.
Will try and write something interesting later on but nothing happens in my life, other than been under house arrest from my mum or trying to sneak drives on Khal’s car (which is a booooooooootiful car to drive)
Right Blogging bloging people.
Any exciting parts of my life at this moment is really no existent. It’s a very mundane.
Very year I make the resolution I will stay on top my work and from the moment the phrase pass my mouth I fall behind. This year was due to complete jet lag.
As most my circle of friends were aware I landed on Monday and I started work on Tuesday.
So the first week was spent nodding off every time there was no one in the room with me.
Then comes Inspection time and Ucas references for students I taught last year for most of them I had to lie and say they were average behaved kids then they were the most rotten little gargoyles know to the education system,.
Other then that it really.
The kids are not to bad however I have only had then a couple of weeks. But there are some Toerags (which sounds good but doesn’t seem to have the same effect in writing huh!!) in my foundation group.
Marriage I am becoming (MD would I already was) a real cynic. There are issues that everyone faces but there seems to be more now than every before.
What else is happening in my life nothing really well and truly.
I had complaints that people haven’t seen my face for the last couple of weeks . I apologise but at this moment in time I am trying to stay on top of work so I have started to go into work for 8 am and finish by 5pm which means I am completely shattered as I have to get up at about 6.30. And yes other people do it normally put I haven’t had to.
So I making the effort to do most of my paperwork on time and not bring it home which isn’t really happening yet but it will IA.
And I would like that it has taken me three days to write this because every time I sit down to write it I have to go and do something else.
And its not my fault ppl.
Will try and write something interesting later on but nothing happens in my life, other than been under house arrest from my mum or trying to sneak drives on Khal’s car (which is a booooooooootiful car to drive)
Friday, September 01, 2006
Back to rain, back to reality
Salaam Ppl
For those who are not in the know i am back in
To top it all off i am back at work.
I am glad to be back but I feel soo disorientated and disconnected that its like a really surreal out of body experience sometimes. Plus i can barely keep my eyes open after
Its strange i always think that things will be completely different from what i left then from but not that much has changed. But then i again i haven't seen all my mates yet have i??????????
But thats all folks as bugs bunny would say.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Salaam Ppl
Am not sure how many are reading at the moment so it a blanket salaam.
Right whathappen so far, well other than going to school and back and doing homwork (which i may add is never right) thanks about it.
I told my mum the only time i see the sea is when i am on the bus going and coming from school. I just wave at it. But the arabic and the tajweed class are worth it because i am learning loads but it basic stuff that i knew but am having to realearn it cos its all wrong.
We went to cairo for the weekend taht was fun!!!. we went to hafsa sisters wedding it was complete diffrerent to hafsa wedding. This one ended at about 2.30 ish
then prayed jummah at Alzhar again then we went to look at the citadel and tried looking for yusuf well but we couldn't find it so about 5.00ish gave up and went to pray asr at Alzhar.
After than we went to look for the blue mosque which was a trek and half(did you know there are only 3 blue mosques in the world). But by the time we found it was closed not amused at all.
then it was off to the hotel for a clean and dinner. we had dinner on a boat in the nile (it was stationary thank you God).
the next day it was off to see the pyrminds but thats another story and half , then it was back to Alex.
Right ppl if you want me to buy you swimming costumes which have long sleves and legging attached to them text me on the no that ends in 785.
Cool ppl will try write in a week or so. my time is running out.
Miss me and pray for me.
Mwah mwah
Am not sure how many are reading at the moment so it a blanket salaam.
Right whathappen so far, well other than going to school and back and doing homwork (which i may add is never right) thanks about it.
I told my mum the only time i see the sea is when i am on the bus going and coming from school. I just wave at it. But the arabic and the tajweed class are worth it because i am learning loads but it basic stuff that i knew but am having to realearn it cos its all wrong.
We went to cairo for the weekend taht was fun!!!. we went to hafsa sisters wedding it was complete diffrerent to hafsa wedding. This one ended at about 2.30 ish
then prayed jummah at Alzhar again then we went to look at the citadel and tried looking for yusuf well but we couldn't find it so about 5.00ish gave up and went to pray asr at Alzhar.
After than we went to look for the blue mosque which was a trek and half(did you know there are only 3 blue mosques in the world). But by the time we found it was closed not amused at all.
then it was off to the hotel for a clean and dinner. we had dinner on a boat in the nile (it was stationary thank you God).
the next day it was off to see the pyrminds but thats another story and half , then it was back to Alex.
Right ppl if you want me to buy you swimming costumes which have long sleves and legging attached to them text me on the no that ends in 785.
Cool ppl will try write in a week or so. my time is running out.
Miss me and pray for me.
Mwah mwah
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Salaam Ppl,
I am 12 days into my trip and bi\oy has it been eventful.
We started in cairo where we spent about a day and a half most of which was spent in Al Ahzar Mosque. I toook the guys to the mango guy near the mosque and they agree he is really good for 20p a glass.
Then it was off to Alex by train which cost 4 pound english for first class and it was nice other than the incesstant mobile ring tones . the first night was horrendous (don't tell my mum) the hotel(leroy it had never been cleaned) that we booked into was really nasty so we spent most of the night looking for another one. Which we found about 12am so we went bck and got our stuff and moved in that night. We alos booked in to another hotel(TROMPHE) for 2mrw.
The next day was spent sleeping by me as i hadn't sleep for the last four days. The next day we were suppose to started at school but i couldn't becuase i had the runs and a really bad stomch ache.
Went in the next day to skl with out luggage as we ere suppose to be moving into skl accomadation. So went there and i swear to you it was minging but not on the same level as leroy. However after 2 hours of trying to clean and it not getting any better oi gave you and went to have a nap about 30 mins later i woke up with flea bites all over me. so i told maryam i was moving so we rang the tromphe for to find out if there was any room for about a month they said yes and we decided in the morning were moving again.
went to skl and told them we didn't want it and after class we went to the hotel.
And we have been there since and i still have a stomach ache so i am in a love hate relationship with food at the moment. But i still haven't fallen ill I never get any benefits ,really ppl you'd think i would get better or at least lose weight.
Arabic is soooooo Cool and tajweed is even better. The best thing i chose to do was to do 2 hrs of tajweed. My teacher is so harsh but she is really funny she thinks i am off my cake but hey thats normal.
The funny thing is a try and practise my arabic and then when ppl respind i have no clue wot they are say so i have to ask ion english anyway.
The reception ppl in the hotel are really cool they keep trying to teach us new words to use. adn cos i get up early in the morning to practise my tajweed the night recpetionist ( a really old bloke) help me practise my tajweed.
Alex is really growing on me. the sea is every where you look (on the main road) we have yet to go swimming but IA next week somethine.
Thius weekend were are going to cario for hafsa little sisters wedding which is another freak stroy guest for the wedding were on the same flight as us coming to cairo.
right ppl i try next week to post some thing soon.
Love ya all and miss ya loads
Shules
P.s maryam amd liz doesn't like shopping so i haven't brought anthing yes so if i come back without pressies blame them!!
P.s.s i heard about sarah A pass on my love to her.
I am 12 days into my trip and bi\oy has it been eventful.
We started in cairo where we spent about a day and a half most of which was spent in Al Ahzar Mosque. I toook the guys to the mango guy near the mosque and they agree he is really good for 20p a glass.
Then it was off to Alex by train which cost 4 pound english for first class and it was nice other than the incesstant mobile ring tones . the first night was horrendous (don't tell my mum) the hotel(leroy it had never been cleaned) that we booked into was really nasty so we spent most of the night looking for another one. Which we found about 12am so we went bck and got our stuff and moved in that night. We alos booked in to another hotel(TROMPHE) for 2mrw.
The next day was spent sleeping by me as i hadn't sleep for the last four days. The next day we were suppose to started at school but i couldn't becuase i had the runs and a really bad stomch ache.
Went in the next day to skl with out luggage as we ere suppose to be moving into skl accomadation. So went there and i swear to you it was minging but not on the same level as leroy. However after 2 hours of trying to clean and it not getting any better oi gave you and went to have a nap about 30 mins later i woke up with flea bites all over me. so i told maryam i was moving so we rang the tromphe for to find out if there was any room for about a month they said yes and we decided in the morning were moving again.
went to skl and told them we didn't want it and after class we went to the hotel.
And we have been there since and i still have a stomach ache so i am in a love hate relationship with food at the moment. But i still haven't fallen ill I never get any benefits ,really ppl you'd think i would get better or at least lose weight.
Arabic is soooooo Cool and tajweed is even better. The best thing i chose to do was to do 2 hrs of tajweed. My teacher is so harsh but she is really funny she thinks i am off my cake but hey thats normal.
The funny thing is a try and practise my arabic and then when ppl respind i have no clue wot they are say so i have to ask ion english anyway.
The reception ppl in the hotel are really cool they keep trying to teach us new words to use. adn cos i get up early in the morning to practise my tajweed the night recpetionist ( a really old bloke) help me practise my tajweed.
Alex is really growing on me. the sea is every where you look (on the main road) we have yet to go swimming but IA next week somethine.
Thius weekend were are going to cario for hafsa little sisters wedding which is another freak stroy guest for the wedding were on the same flight as us coming to cairo.
right ppl i try next week to post some thing soon.
Love ya all and miss ya loads
Shules
P.s maryam amd liz doesn't like shopping so i haven't brought anthing yes so if i come back without pressies blame them!!
P.s.s i heard about sarah A pass on my love to her.
Monday, July 03, 2006
Detox, poltics and marking
I need the toilet, the toilet.
People if there isn’t a nearby empty your bladder facilities I suggest that you don’t do the 4 bottles a day detox.
I have three major events coming up where I am suppose to looking my best. I am not going to be able to the lose about 5 stones but hey my skin can look great right.
So I have just finished my first bottle (its taken me 3 hours) and I have been once to the water closet but I need to go again. But I can't alas I have to teach the joys and lights of life my students.
Plus I am starving, its not like I have stopped eating but I am really hungry. I ate my sandwich at 11:30 when normally I eat bout 1pm.
Is this normal?
I got my visa back from the Egyptian embassy and I am set to go! No I am not, I still have to pack and do my shopping for it blah blah
Was suppose to go to kateebah but things happened so I am not going however I now have to join the tallah kateebah because I have missed to many. When I am pondering on this I don’t seem to be getting a anxiety feeling nor I am I feeling really depressed about. I should feel some loss or something about missing it?
I have I lost my sense of motivation about the Duaat program? I am not sure I think I need to seriously consider where I am going with this and how I am to deal with my atrophied feelings towards the program.
I have been trying to recruit and raise awareness about the new northwest Program. I have meeting with the Head ISOC of the local uni’s and they don’t seem to be very interested in the concept nor do they seem to feel any guilty of not attending one.
As they have so many other commitments the program seems to be at the end of their things to do list.
So who am I to sit judgement on what they should be doing to improve themselves?
Another thing is I thought most Muslim groups were on trying to make this world a better place but in the last few weeks its given me an opposite view. Its bad enough that there are people who are trying to bring us down but why in the name of the most merciful are we ( MAB, ISOC,FOSIS etc) creating dissension between each other. In the last couple of days there has been so much politics in the way each group deals with each other its amazing we all don’t run for government. There is a group against group mentality and I wish I could get the heads of all the groups in one room and roar at them for been so petty.
At the end of the day everyone is doing their piece to make our corner of the world a better place and we need to recognise each other for the work each of us do and notto dish each other for their efforts. Here’s a unique idea how about we all get together and try to work together, if we have ideas that run on the same level why not combine out forces and make it a fantastic project not a mediocre one.
Phew that turned out to me more than I meant to right but its here and I am not taking it back.
Nothing really interesting has happened, because of my marking am at home more, mum and me are having nice little conversations as she can pin me down and I don’t (or can’t) really go anywhere else.
I am now paper 206 and I have 46 more papers to finish for Saturday. But I really need to finish for Wednesday as I am on a training days Thursday and Friday.
See how that goes.
People if there isn’t a nearby empty your bladder facilities I suggest that you don’t do the 4 bottles a day detox.
I have three major events coming up where I am suppose to looking my best. I am not going to be able to the lose about 5 stones but hey my skin can look great right.
So I have just finished my first bottle (its taken me 3 hours) and I have been once to the water closet but I need to go again. But I can't alas I have to teach the joys and lights of life my students.
Plus I am starving, its not like I have stopped eating but I am really hungry. I ate my sandwich at 11:30 when normally I eat bout 1pm.
Is this normal?
I got my visa back from the Egyptian embassy and I am set to go! No I am not, I still have to pack and do my shopping for it blah blah
Was suppose to go to kateebah but things happened so I am not going however I now have to join the tallah kateebah because I have missed to many. When I am pondering on this I don’t seem to be getting a anxiety feeling nor I am I feeling really depressed about. I should feel some loss or something about missing it?
I have I lost my sense of motivation about the Duaat program? I am not sure I think I need to seriously consider where I am going with this and how I am to deal with my atrophied feelings towards the program.
I have been trying to recruit and raise awareness about the new northwest Program. I have meeting with the Head ISOC of the local uni’s and they don’t seem to be very interested in the concept nor do they seem to feel any guilty of not attending one.
As they have so many other commitments the program seems to be at the end of their things to do list.
So who am I to sit judgement on what they should be doing to improve themselves?
Another thing is I thought most Muslim groups were on trying to make this world a better place but in the last few weeks its given me an opposite view. Its bad enough that there are people who are trying to bring us down but why in the name of the most merciful are we ( MAB, ISOC,FOSIS etc) creating dissension between each other. In the last couple of days there has been so much politics in the way each group deals with each other its amazing we all don’t run for government. There is a group against group mentality and I wish I could get the heads of all the groups in one room and roar at them for been so petty.
At the end of the day everyone is doing their piece to make our corner of the world a better place and we need to recognise each other for the work each of us do and notto dish each other for their efforts. Here’s a unique idea how about we all get together and try to work together, if we have ideas that run on the same level why not combine out forces and make it a fantastic project not a mediocre one.
Phew that turned out to me more than I meant to right but its here and I am not taking it back.
Nothing really interesting has happened, because of my marking am at home more, mum and me are having nice little conversations as she can pin me down and I don’t (or can’t) really go anywhere else.
I am now paper 206 and I have 46 more papers to finish for Saturday. But I really need to finish for Wednesday as I am on a training days Thursday and Friday.
See how that goes.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
I wish i was a punk rocker
Where am i ?
In the middle of the lesson am suppose to be teaching.
Nm is whinging that I am not providing her with entertainment. I apologise but at this moment in time I am marking. Its brain draining truly it is because you have to attempt to
decipher what the kids have written not only is their hand writing really bad but a lot of them can even structure their sentences.
All I have had time for is, sneaking in reads of my book.
Why is it when I have marking all I want to do put it off until have finished my book?
I was on a roll seriously people, I got organised and I was meeting my personal quota then I get the bad news I am marking to harshly and I have to stop until I get my sample back. Which also meant I had to remark the 75 (I counted exactly) papers. I was so not amused.
So now I have to get may self back into the swing of things which is quite hard.
But I also have to organise my Egypt trip am going nearly 2 half weeks time . I finally sent of for my visa Yeah yeah. I am going
Dear God I am going.
I just felt the nerves of anxiety go through me. IA I will be fine.
Okay breathe lets think about other things
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghh I can’t
I can only think of things that I need to do before I go.
Seriously feeling the anxiety
Okay lets try breathing again.
Marriage front- I am just tired of rejections and of been jealous of people who are already there and happy.
But am also terrified of the whole thing. I mean whose to say we know that the person or if I thought he was the person and he’s not. What if he changes into a person I can’t even understand never mind thought I loved and trusted with my whole soul and body.
I know there people I know who have beautiful marriages and other are having a hard time of it.
But I can’t help the pessimistic side of me which appears when marriages and their problems come up. I don’t have a solid background of happy marriage and I have serious trust issue with the opposite gender.
So is the grass green on the other side not really I mean I would get some benefits but I don’t think they would outweigh the perks of been single.
But life goes on, you worry for people, ask Allah to guide them and ease their suffering and leave it there.
I forgotten how easy it is to write and see things on paper.
Right that should do for now I am going to go back to teaching.
TKC my people
Love and salaam (Peace)
In the middle of the lesson am suppose to be teaching.
Nm is whinging that I am not providing her with entertainment. I apologise but at this moment in time I am marking. Its brain draining truly it is because you have to attempt to
decipher what the kids have written not only is their hand writing really bad but a lot of them can even structure their sentences. All I have had time for is, sneaking in reads of my book.
Why is it when I have marking all I want to do put it off until have finished my book?
I was on a roll seriously people, I got organised and I was meeting my personal quota then I get the bad news I am marking to harshly and I have to stop until I get my sample back. Which also meant I had to remark the 75 (I counted exactly) papers. I was so not amused.
So now I have to get may self back into the swing of things which is quite hard.
But I also have to organise my Egypt trip am going nearly 2 half weeks time . I finally sent of for my visa Yeah yeah. I am going
Dear God I am going.
I just felt the nerves of anxiety go through me. IA I will be fine.
Okay breathe lets think about other things
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghh I can’t
I can only think of things that I need to do before I go.
Seriously feeling the anxiety
Okay lets try breathing again.
Marriage front- I am just tired of rejections and of been jealous of people who are already there and happy.But am also terrified of the whole thing. I mean whose to say we know that the person or if I thought he was the person and he’s not. What if he changes into a person I can’t even understand never mind thought I loved and trusted with my whole soul and body.
I know there people I know who have beautiful marriages and other are having a hard time of it.
But I can’t help the pessimistic side of me which appears when marriages and their problems come up. I don’t have a solid background of happy marriage and I have serious trust issue with the opposite gender.
So is the grass green on the other side not really I mean I would get some benefits but I don’t think they would outweigh the perks of been single.
But life goes on, you worry for people, ask Allah to guide them and ease their suffering and leave it there.
I forgotten how easy it is to write and see things on paper.
Right that should do for now I am going to go back to teaching.
TKC my people
Love and salaam (Peace)
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Latest News
One I passed my driving test finally Shukr Allah.
Lady from the shire got married
Dizzy was in a car accident (not her fault)- has whiplash poor thing.
NM got mugged (idiot fought with the mugger)
I had a week off from work where I tried not to go on the computer if I could help it.
Had a meeting with NM research project and just like to mention her boss is still the, sheep biting, bucket head, gape seed stupid.
My mum is pleased with my work of art (shoe rack) which I varnished over three days.
Am suppose to be creating next years As rescource notes. Not going to well. My head feels like its in cotton wool. Great a bit of sun and I get hayfever.
So that’s it for this installment.
One I passed my driving test finally Shukr Allah.
Lady from the shire got married
Dizzy was in a car accident (not her fault)- has whiplash poor thing.
NM got mugged (idiot fought with the mugger)I had a week off from work where I tried not to go on the computer if I could help it.
Had a meeting with NM research project and just like to mention her boss is still the, sheep biting, bucket head, gape seed stupid.
My mum is pleased with my work of art (shoe rack) which I varnished over three days.
Am suppose to be creating next years As rescource notes. Not going to well. My head feels like its in cotton wool. Great a bit of sun and I get hayfever.
So that’s it for this installment.
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
My child is going to be an only child.
Yesterday was supposed to be a chilled out evening with mates.
Could I be far wrong from that!
First was suppose to meet ETI(Ever The Idealist) at about 4.30 did she turn up no!!! Stood up again jeez people am going to gain a complex after all this.
I rang her about 4.45 to say “where are you”
ETI :“it Maryams fault she forgot her bus pass at mums will be with you in a bit”.
In a bit you would be forgiven if you though that it meant may be another 15 -20 mins.
So go to stand outside Primark and sit on the benches. Watching the pigeons and trying not to eavesdrop on the conversation behind me. Just like to mention its really windy and chilly at this moment in time.
5.17 sent txt msgs no reply. 5.21 one bell no reply . Watching 3 , 3!!! buses from ETI part of town and still no ETI.
By 5.33 it got to cold so I went into Primark . Then I got hold of MD who said wasn’t her fault but they were cumin.
Decided to wander down to TXMax nothin interesting there. By this point was really just feeling sorry for myself and think by do I not just have a nice catch up session with my so called mates why are they always so late and can I be bothered to make the effort again (PMT time ).
But along came NM and met me there. With the message ETI was here but was already at Okalahoma (café shop) not amused not amused.
Meet up with her and just about made up when I get a ring from Dizzy (which she b****y well lives up to) saying that she lost LK train tickets and debit card and could I check all the places she had been to recently.
So wot do I do trek to around the city centre to Piccadilly train station in the rain and the cold. Try and convince LK its not Dizzys fault really.
Get to the MYF about 7.45 there goes the resolution to meet new sisters-Arggghhhh
WA and Palastine dudette was there! My baby girl has grown again jeez louise (or am getting short hmmmmmmmm)
About 8.30 Dizzy txts to say she found them . They has sleep through a hole in the pocket of the bag. While I was trekking round I clearly remembered telling her to check if the bag had holes or it had slipped through anywhere.
By then I am just tired hungry and achy. So I reckon I am going to not put my child through the suffering of siblings doing things like this so he or she will be an only child.
End of a really surreal evening!!!
Ps Type in Miserable and the second entry is Biography of President George W. Bush
Could I be far wrong from that!
First was suppose to meet ETI(Ever The Idealist) at about 4.30 did she turn up no!!! Stood up again jeez people am going to gain a complex after all this.
I rang her about 4.45 to say “where are you”
ETI :“it Maryams fault she forgot her bus pass at mums will be with you in a bit”.
In a bit you would be forgiven if you though that it meant may be another 15 -20 mins.
So go to stand outside Primark and sit on the benches. Watching the pigeons and trying not to eavesdrop on the conversation behind me. Just like to mention its really windy and chilly at this moment in time.
5.17 sent txt msgs no reply. 5.21 one bell no reply . Watching 3 , 3!!! buses from ETI part of town and still no ETI.
By 5.33 it got to cold so I went into Primark . Then I got hold of MD who said wasn’t her fault but they were cumin.
Decided to wander down to TXMax nothin interesting there. By this point was really just feeling sorry for myself and think by do I not just have a nice catch up session with my so called mates why are they always so late and can I be bothered to make the effort again (PMT time ).
But along came NM and met me there. With the message ETI was here but was already at Okalahoma (café shop) not amused not amused.
Meet up with her and just about made up when I get a ring from Dizzy (which she b****y well lives up to) saying that she lost LK train tickets and debit card and could I check all the places she had been to recently.
So wot do I do trek to around the city centre to Piccadilly train station in the rain and the cold. Try and convince LK its not Dizzys fault really.
Get to the MYF about 7.45 there goes the resolution to meet new sisters-Arggghhhh
WA and Palastine dudette was there! My baby girl has grown again jeez louise (or am getting short hmmmmmmmm)
About 8.30 Dizzy txts to say she found them . They has sleep through a hole in the pocket of the bag. While I was trekking round I clearly remembered telling her to check if the bag had holes or it had slipped through anywhere.
By then I am just tired hungry and achy. So I reckon I am going to not put my child through the suffering of siblings doing things like this so he or she will be an only child.
End of a really surreal evening!!!
Ps Type in Miserable and the second entry is Biography of President George W. Bush
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
To be hjiabi or not be hijabi that is the question?
I was talking to NM a couple of days ago and I was read WA blog as well. And this seems to be the common theme so we'll roll with it.
Working in the FE sectors I see a lot of young sisters wearing the head scarf however the term Hijabi may not be what we would say they were. Now I am not sitting on judgement of anyone these are just thoughts that I have had.
Hijab I have been told means covering not a headscarf but its term that we use to describe a girl who wears a head scarf.
So if we go from there I think the blog will easier to understand.
When I was younger my mum sent me to a faith school (Islamic high) and as apart of my uniform I had to wear a headscarf but no one explained why I had to wear and for a long time I associated the headscarf as part of my uniform for school.
In our culture girls didn’t and some still won’t wear the headscarf until they are old or for some after they are married. Some will were the duppatta a see through material which is thrown over their shoulders. Some will have half their head showing.
There is a lot of misunderstanding about been covered I mean there are parent who will allow their daughters to wear the tightest shalwar kameez or shalwars ( the trousers)with splits up
them which show a part of their leg or kameez( tops) which don’t have sleeves or completely see through or sarees that you can see people stomachs back and arms. However they wouldn’t be allowed to wear trousers or skirts or tops as they are not modest.Ohhh Please !!!!!!
In my place of work I am the only hijabi. There are girls here that are hijabis but there are girls who wear the headscarf.
Now the conundrum starts here do I explain to the girls who wear the headscarf (not the hibjis) the right way of been a hijabi or leave it to them to discover it on their own.
I mean it took me about eight years to get where I am and I am still not perfect. And I remember at that age I thought I knew best jeez I was so confident I could have taken on the world and his dog.
Also the other conundrum is as a teacher you are not allowed to comment on personal things like clothing weight, b.o, etc.
So wot to do wot to do!!!
The other is the conduct of our younger sisters. I really hate summer in the college cos all you hear is the girls screeching because the boys are hitting them with water bombs. And they are giggling and screeching and encouraging them to come and fight. Arrrrrrrrrrrrgh
Even today I saw a young habji sister with a lad (and I am not been paranoid but they were attracted and were flirting with each other). Trust me anyone who was in the vicinity could see how badly they liked each other(vibes vibes). I am not saying that all didn’t have the same feelings at one time or another but most of us were very guarded and to tell you the truth I think we were nastier to the boys more than if we didn’t like them.
But again in guidance do I allow this to happen (and pray that they will not make the mistake of taking it any further) or do I say something and risk been reported to senior management for making personal comments?
There is an Islamic society this year and I would like to get involved however I feel I have been excluded on purpose and I don’t want to muscle in as they may feel that I am the teacher sent to spy on them.
Plus some of the girls (Jibabi girls) don’t half give me the looks up and down for not been up to their standard. It’s a very clicky and I personally think that some girls have been excluded as well cos they are not hijabi’s.
I have really wanted to start one but they weren’t allowed for various reasons and the year they allow it I am so bsy I didn’t have time to go to the bog never time track it down to VP Mosque.
So people wot do I do because I feel I am going to be answerable for this and all I can think I could say to God is I am sorry but I was in fear of losing my job.
I have just read this Blog of a young sister on wearing the Hijab and it made me smile. Peeps knock your self out reading
http://www.alternet.org/wiretap/20616/
Right i think i have rambled enough.
Salaam People
Finally !!!
Salaam my long lost readers
A couple of things have happened in the past week however other people have beaten me to writing about it.
If you have read the NM or WA blog you will have found out that most of the Manchester crew went along to the Palestine Rally in London. Meet up with Tahnia
Wot other things have happened? Hmmmmmmmmmm
Had our study circle with Abu Sondes, which was as always quite interesting. Abu sondes was commenting on the the amount of new people who were attending the Tuesday circle and wot we were doing to introduce ourselves to the new people so that they feel comfortable.
The suggestion were that:
We have a contact details book
We don’t do our clicky thing
We spread ourselves out in the main room.
So my sisters, we are on a mission to meet as many sisters as we can in the next couple of sessions of the study circle.
Our First (or should that be second as Queen Sophia had baby Dawood when she was in usra.) Baby came to usra. Yipppppee
Our Usra baby (Faith)who is amazingly 5 months old got passed around then I finally got her for 10 mins before someone snatched her away umpfh!!!. She was so good she sat through the beginning just watching and it looked like she was really listening intently Abu Sondes.
Oh yes I forgot I finally I went swimming with LK where we meet MD and Language Addict (AL). MD then proceeded to try and drown me!!!!. Also tried to teach LK how to improve her swimming but I wasn’t a very good teacher as I kept swimming away.
Other things are I have just finished reading a really good book called the Covenants by Lorna Freeman. Its got the best telling off comments going!!
It goes “stickle butt headless, sheep biting bucket head pox witless, cow baiting, dead fish, numb arse gape seed stupid”
LK this morning managed to lock herself in her bedroom as the key had broken. So at 5.30 in the morning she proceeded to wake every one in the house (other than our 'precious' who slept through it all) to try and open the door. She managed to find the second key Praises be to Allah as we were about to get the locksmith out. And get this people. They charge £100 per hour ever if they only stay for 15 mins. For the love of the Almighty, my mum is right people do think we are stupid.
Oh i nearly forgot people I have now booked my ticket to Egypt. So I will be gone for about five to six weeks. It can’t come soon enough.
Right I am signing off
Well not yet if you want to carry on reading as I know there are certain people who don’t have anything other to do. I have second blog entry I am going to publish in 20 mins.
A couple of things have happened in the past week however other people have beaten me to writing about it.
If you have read the NM or WA blog you will have found out that most of the Manchester crew went along to the Palestine Rally in London. Meet up with Tahnia
Wot other things have happened? Hmmmmmmmmmm
Had our study circle with Abu Sondes, which was as always quite interesting. Abu sondes was commenting on the the amount of new people who were attending the Tuesday circle and wot we were doing to introduce ourselves to the new people so that they feel comfortable.
The suggestion were that:
We have a contact details book
We don’t do our clicky thing
We spread ourselves out in the main room.
So my sisters, we are on a mission to meet as many sisters as we can in the next couple of sessions of the study circle.
Our First (or should that be second as Queen Sophia had baby Dawood when she was in usra.) Baby came to usra. Yipppppee
Our Usra baby (Faith)who is amazingly 5 months old got passed around then I finally got her for 10 mins before someone snatched her away umpfh!!!. She was so good she sat through the beginning just watching and it looked like she was really listening intently Abu Sondes.
Oh yes I forgot I finally I went swimming with LK where we meet MD and Language Addict (AL). MD then proceeded to try and drown me!!!!. Also tried to teach LK how to improve her swimming but I wasn’t a very good teacher as I kept swimming away.
Other things are I have just finished reading a really good book called the Covenants by Lorna Freeman. Its got the best telling off comments going!!
It goes “stickle butt headless, sheep biting bucket head pox witless, cow baiting, dead fish, numb arse gape seed stupid”
LK this morning managed to lock herself in her bedroom as the key had broken. So at 5.30 in the morning she proceeded to wake every one in the house (other than our 'precious' who slept through it all) to try and open the door. She managed to find the second key Praises be to Allah as we were about to get the locksmith out. And get this people. They charge £100 per hour ever if they only stay for 15 mins. For the love of the Almighty, my mum is right people do think we are stupid.
Oh i nearly forgot people I have now booked my ticket to Egypt. So I will be gone for about five to six weeks. It can’t come soon enough.
Right I am signing off
Well not yet if you want to carry on reading as I know there are certain people who don’t have anything other to do. I have second blog entry I am going to publish in 20 mins.
Monday, May 15, 2006
Rant&Rave (actually its just random thoughts&whinging)
Salaam Peeps!!
Life for me has been so hectic recently and most of it my fault. But I am forever learning so inshaAllah I won’t be making the same mistake again.
I am sorry people for the rushed salaams here and there or the rushed telephone conversation or to the conversations where all I have done is talk about my work. But that is over for the next two weeks and there will be exam marking in the next three week after that.
So my dearest friends I ask for your forgiveness in my forgetfulness.
Dear God its nearly the end of the year and I have been teaching three full years and I am still not organized enough not to be doing all nighters.
Now on a completely random tangent of thought
There are people who annoy me but sometimes I wonder who I annoy and if they like me just don’t say to my face. The people who annoy me I am civil to but they are not incorporated in to my social life. But there has to be people who I annoy I wonder who?
What do other people think of me? Do they see the slightly below average height young person who tends to try and bossy people around?
Do they see the friend who is always and will always be there for them
Or sister who is there to whining on or pick on or giggle with until 12 at night even though we have work the next morning.
Ever thought what the world would look like through another persons eyes. I mean sometimes I get a shock looking in the mirror and I think is that really what I look like. So I wonder would I get a shock if I saw my behaviour my attitude and my mannerism through some else point of view.
Is there something even I don’t see that ticks people off about me and how do other people deal with it?
When my kids at work tick me off, boy oh boy do they know they have annoyed me. Not only do they about my annoyance but so do the kids on the table or in the class.
I mean I know when I have annoyed members of my family we are vocal enough that you could hear us down the street.
But I always get a sense of people have a home personality and outside personality. So which one is the truest portray of that person?
How can you really know someone?
People who know me know the a major issue in my life is which begins with the letter M.
I am in the process of meeting feasible potential but you meet someone of them and you know it’s a no straight away.
But there are those that you meet who tick the right boxes on paper BUT there is something funny about them and your family aren’t to keen on him what do you do then.
How do you know he is the person that you want to life the rest of your life with may it be a year or 50 years?
You asked the right questions and you’ve met him once twice and then the doubts hit you. You’ve prayed to Allah to guide and you get a unease feeling but maybeits just nerves or indigestion!
Because you have lowered your expectations right down to the bare minimum you feel “well am I settling” for not second best but maybe fifth best or seventh best.
Am a the fussy and picky little twit who should be grateful people are still interested in marrying you?
What about the one?
The one you have had a dream about but don’t know who he is and when he’s suppose to come into your life.
People the questions not hit you they smack you so hard that you can possible see the other side of the moon.
So ….
Where do I go from here I don’t know . This Blog thing is really therapeutic .
Heck ppl don’t feel obliged to read any more whinging
So am signing off
Peace
GYM
Life for me has been so hectic recently and most of it my fault. But I am forever learning so inshaAllah I won’t be making the same mistake again.
I am sorry people for the rushed salaams here and there or the rushed telephone conversation or to the conversations where all I have done is talk about my work. But that is over for the next two weeks and there will be exam marking in the next three week after that.
So my dearest friends I ask for your forgiveness in my forgetfulness.
Dear God its nearly the end of the year and I have been teaching three full years and I am still not organized enough not to be doing all nighters.
Now on a completely random tangent of thought
There are people who annoy me but sometimes I wonder who I annoy and if they like me just don’t say to my face. The people who annoy me I am civil to but they are not incorporated in to my social life. But there has to be people who I annoy I wonder who?
What do other people think of me? Do they see the slightly below average height young person who tends to try and bossy people around?
Do they see the friend who is always and will always be there for them
Or sister who is there to whining on or pick on or giggle with until 12 at night even though we have work the next morning.
Ever thought what the world would look like through another persons eyes. I mean sometimes I get a shock looking in the mirror and I think is that really what I look like. So I wonder would I get a shock if I saw my behaviour my attitude and my mannerism through some else point of view.
Is there something even I don’t see that ticks people off about me and how do other people deal with it?
When my kids at work tick me off, boy oh boy do they know they have annoyed me. Not only do they about my annoyance but so do the kids on the table or in the class.
I mean I know when I have annoyed members of my family we are vocal enough that you could hear us down the street.
But I always get a sense of people have a home personality and outside personality. So which one is the truest portray of that person?
How can you really know someone?
People who know me know the a major issue in my life is which begins with the letter M.
I am in the process of meeting feasible potential but you meet someone of them and you know it’s a no straight away.
But there are those that you meet who tick the right boxes on paper BUT there is something funny about them and your family aren’t to keen on him what do you do then.
How do you know he is the person that you want to life the rest of your life with may it be a year or 50 years?
You asked the right questions and you’ve met him once twice and then the doubts hit you. You’ve prayed to Allah to guide and you get a unease feeling but maybeits just nerves or indigestion!
Because you have lowered your expectations right down to the bare minimum you feel “well am I settling” for not second best but maybe fifth best or seventh best.
Am a the fussy and picky little twit who should be grateful people are still interested in marrying you?
What about the one?
The one you have had a dream about but don’t know who he is and when he’s suppose to come into your life.
People the questions not hit you they smack you so hard that you can possible see the other side of the moon.
So ….
Where do I go from here I don’t know . This Blog thing is really therapeutic .
Heck ppl don’t feel obliged to read any more whinging
So am signing off
Peace
GYM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Salaam
Ppl I haven't got time to write so i think i will entertain you with my pics.
InshaAllah i will have most of the coursework done and dusted by next wednesday. So it be a more words and a less grumpy young woman or maybe not
Also those who always need a ride pls pray that i pass on saturday and i will give you rides to where ever your hearts desires.
Enjoy and Masalaam, GYM
Egypt at sunrise
Aswan ducks made by the hotel cleaning ladies 
Turkey at sunset in March
Falucca floating down the Nile.
Saturday, April 29, 2006
"Summer dreams drifting away" (guess the film)
Life seems to get away from us all. White African was at our house this morning and she said "God its been nearly a year since we were in Egypt".
To tell you the truth it feels longer because so many things have happened in between. People have gotten married, babies were born, people have moved away and people have gained a year on their age. We have all grown up in different ways.
I am not saying that it’s a bad thing to have time move so fast but sometimes its really scary how things can happen in such a short amount of time but it feels like its taken place over years not weeks or months.
I wonder if any one else feel like time moved slow when we were kids god we couldn't wait until we where all grown up and the dreams we had where taking for ever to happen. Now its all rush rush, sometimes we don't even notice that the sun is out or take the time to breathe in deep and feel the crispiness of the air in our lungs. I am thankful for one thing about work been in walking distance is that i can do the little things that remind me of the seasons and to thank Allah for all my sense.
So what shall we do to celebrate the anniversary of such a great trip well most people are managing to go away again to some place hot, Syria morocco Egypt Abu Dhabi.
So here’s to the summer people (okay there is about 14 weeks to go but who ‘s counting ) may your trips bring you joy and knowledge. May Allah keep you safe and healthy.
Before i sign of just a quick note everyone whether its in the morning or the afternoon or even at night sit outside and look to the skies for a moment amd let me tell you it will right all the wrongs in your day. You will feel as refreshed as if you had drunk a glass of cold water on a hot day.
Rambling are now finished for the day so reader enjoy bank holiday weekend. Love and peace to all
GYM (Ironic huh !!!)
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Learn new tricks
Right
The only reason I have a blog is because I wanted to leave a comment on someones blog. Now I have one I feel the compulsion to fill it up with some comments or such.
Personally I thought having a blog was just another way to fill up cyber space with rubbish I mean now that humans have nearly destroyed the atmosphere and the earth we need another place to dump our rubbish. :
The other feelings was one of bitterness and envy I mean where did these people get the time Jeez Louise I am luck to be able to watch a movie in its entirety nevermind sitting there to write paragraghs.
The feeling of envy stems from the fact that I am a reader and have no really talent in expressing my self (first of all, for all my reading I still can’t spell worth a dime) not that i am bitter or anything i have come to grips with that.
However yesterday I tried to blog and thought I would start with the common theme of knowing someone (i.e. rejection and them not taking it too well)
I got started and was halfway into the incident and I decided right, spell check. Wrong wrong thing to do. It Bl***y well deleted all my work and the posting went into the cyberspace equivalent of laa land. People I am an techie of sort but yesterday the blog seriously confounded me and miffed me right of, so I lived up to my name and left a grumpy message.
All because I can’t spell and probably won't learn how to do it as i am at the grand old age stage so i won't bother. God made spell checker for that. Ah well people till next time.
Right NM are you happy?
The only reason I have a blog is because I wanted to leave a comment on someones blog. Now I have one I feel the compulsion to fill it up with some comments or such.
Personally I thought having a blog was just another way to fill up cyber space with rubbish I mean now that humans have nearly destroyed the atmosphere and the earth we need another place to dump our rubbish. :
The other feelings was one of bitterness and envy I mean where did these people get the time Jeez Louise I am luck to be able to watch a movie in its entirety nevermind sitting there to write paragraghs.
The feeling of envy stems from the fact that I am a reader and have no really talent in expressing my self (first of all, for all my reading I still can’t spell worth a dime) not that i am bitter or anything i have come to grips with that.
However yesterday I tried to blog and thought I would start with the common theme of knowing someone (i.e. rejection and them not taking it too well)
I got started and was halfway into the incident and I decided right, spell check. Wrong wrong thing to do. It Bl***y well deleted all my work and the posting went into the cyberspace equivalent of laa land. People I am an techie of sort but yesterday the blog seriously confounded me and miffed me right of, so I lived up to my name and left a grumpy message.
All because I can’t spell and probably won't learn how to do it as i am at the grand old age stage so i won't bother. God made spell checker for that. Ah well people till next time.
Right NM are you happy?
I give up
I have just wrote a whole blog and its disappeared.
I think i will live you to my name and leave it for another day.
:(
I think i will live you to my name and leave it for another day.
:(
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